Over the last seven years on this amazing journey of starting a church, there has been some pretty hairy moments where we weren’t sure if we were going to make it. These seasons all have felt the same…a messy mixture of hope, fear, panic, faith, despair, and fight. It has been in those seasons where we have found ourselves feeling like our backs were against a wall. Have you ever felt that way in your own life?
These crisis’ have come in many forms for our church – finances, facilities, strategy decisions, etc. The circumstances vary, but the feeling is the same: we feel like we have been pushed to the point where we just can’t be pushed any further…we feel trapped by reality. I am sure you have been there as well! Options seem limited and the wall seems solid.
I find the next step is also familiar…my head drops, sometimes for moments, sometimes for weeks, the prayers float through my mind, and then suddenly my eyes open as my head raises. The still, small voice of God ALWAYS says the same thing when we feel trapped… “If your back is against the wall, move the wall.” It’s said as a mandate with a firmness that can only be from Heaven itself. There’s no wavering, there’s no shaking in the voice. “Move the wall.”
What “walls” are in your life? If you are like the rest of us, you probably consider that wall a boundary that you cannot get past. It is your limitation and it’s not going anywhere….or is it? Maybe you find yourself fighting what is in front of you, rather than turning around and taking the sledge hammer to the fortress behind you. We often find that when our back is against those walls, God really never intended for us to fight what was pushing us to the wall; He wanted to get us to tear down the wall.
Here’s the reality: That wall may look solid and it may not be easy to chip away at it, but that should not stop you from taking it on with a vengeance. Whatever is on the other side of the wall is worth getting to.
The best thing I can do is to stop running from what’s pushing me and start swinging at what is stopping me. Move the wall.
what inspiration and great writing. I heard a contemporary Christian song a while back about being against the wall but I can’t remember the title or the artist. Great thoughts and we are about to face a couple of walls for our vision and it’s through prayer that we break down the walls.