I wish I could easily sum up the last couple of months. All I can say is that Mark and I are GROWING daily. As a teenager, I remember physically growing daily. My joints hurt, my legs ached, I needed more food to sustain myself than ever before…I was literally stretching my body out day by day. This season feels the same way. I feel like God is pushing us to rethink, redefine, and “redream” everything. He is broadening us on how we think about church, organization, and money. He is pushing us to step out of our comfort zone and tell people about His mission and what He’s done in our lives.
I have learned more in the last couple of months than I have learned in the last five years. I feel tired constantly by the weight of information and expectation. It is as if the hand of God is at our backs PUSHING us to where HE wants us to go. Don’t get me wrong…I like this part of the journey. I like being pushed, but that doesn’t mean it’s easy.
I have always believed that we are our own limitation. If we will allow God to push us through our boundaries, the sky is the limit. He has all of the money, all of the favor, and all of the ability to move mountains. And He wants to do it. So why doesn’t He? Because He wants us to stand in faith for the money, the favor, and the ability. Why don’t we? Faith is a scary place to live.
Simply put…faith feels like sticking your neck into a noose and praying the chair doesn’t fall out from under you. It’s uncomfortable. But when all is said and done in our lives, I don’t want to have played it safe.
I long for the moment when the phone rings and someone on the other end wants to give us $1 million dollars…maybe 2, 5 or 10 million, but what I am more convinced of than ever is that the money isn’t God’s agenda on this journey. It’s the growth in our lives and the growth in yours. I know that phone call will come, but what I think God is waiting for is more people to stand on the chair of faith and to feel the GROWTH in their own life.
Ask yourself: How can I be a part of something greater than myself and what would make me uncomfortable? The answer to those questions will mess with you more than I think you will want it to.